Perfect Planning
When you receive a devastating blow, you do not want to hear "God just has better plans". It might be true, but you do not want to hear it.
I have heard this phrase a million times it seems since receiving the news that I would not be a Resident Assistant next year.
This is a position I wanted. Very badly. I could not (and still have a difficult time) imagine myself doing anything else next year. It is a great opportunity to be the leader of a hall and work with a staff of RA's.
I was shattered as I read the letter, which started "Thank you for participating...". I knew then I had not been offered the position, yet it took longer for that to sink in.
The first time I heard "the phrase" I wanted to yell and scream and pitch a fit. (I didn't; however, my reaction to the news included a lot of crying). My mother later said it to me, but in a very gentle tone. She reminded me of this simple, yet hard to accept, truth.
[Side note: I am very grateful to attend college where my mother also works. My mom is very wise, encouraging, and her words are life-giving because she is filled with the Holy Spirit. I would not have been able to function the rest of the day without her. For more on her side of this day, see her blog: Journey with the Nobles.]
God does have a plan for my life. His plan may not include RA this upcoming year. I don't know what it does include. I don't like not knowing. I have short-term and long-term plans, but I have to be willing to change them if they are not God's. He knows what is best for my life because He is the author of my journey. Let everything be done for the glory of God (paraphrase of 1 Corinthians 10:31). I do not want to do anything if it is not going to glorify my Father.
Does this make it easier to accept I will not be an RA? No. I am still struggling to accept it. But if God's plan is better, then I have so much more to look forward to! It is hard to believe and I haven't grasped it, but I am excited for where He decides to take me.
"So we do not loser heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day be day. For this light momentary affliction is not preparing for us an eternal weight of flory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
I have heard this phrase a million times it seems since receiving the news that I would not be a Resident Assistant next year.
This is a position I wanted. Very badly. I could not (and still have a difficult time) imagine myself doing anything else next year. It is a great opportunity to be the leader of a hall and work with a staff of RA's.
I was shattered as I read the letter, which started "Thank you for participating...". I knew then I had not been offered the position, yet it took longer for that to sink in.
The first time I heard "the phrase" I wanted to yell and scream and pitch a fit. (I didn't; however, my reaction to the news included a lot of crying). My mother later said it to me, but in a very gentle tone. She reminded me of this simple, yet hard to accept, truth.
[Side note: I am very grateful to attend college where my mother also works. My mom is very wise, encouraging, and her words are life-giving because she is filled with the Holy Spirit. I would not have been able to function the rest of the day without her. For more on her side of this day, see her blog: Journey with the Nobles.]
God does have a plan for my life. His plan may not include RA this upcoming year. I don't know what it does include. I don't like not knowing. I have short-term and long-term plans, but I have to be willing to change them if they are not God's. He knows what is best for my life because He is the author of my journey. Let everything be done for the glory of God (paraphrase of 1 Corinthians 10:31). I do not want to do anything if it is not going to glorify my Father.
Does this make it easier to accept I will not be an RA? No. I am still struggling to accept it. But if God's plan is better, then I have so much more to look forward to! It is hard to believe and I haven't grasped it, but I am excited for where He decides to take me.
"So we do not loser heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day be day. For this light momentary affliction is not preparing for us an eternal weight of flory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Even though you are still struggling with accepting the news, you are wise to believe that God has a plan for you. This shows maturity beyond your years. Keep trusting, praying, seeking and loving. I'm glad I could be there to help you when you got the disappointing letter. I love you!
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